THE POWER TO KILL GODS? I’LL SEE WHAT I CAN DO.
Carefully hidden in the background of these stillscreen shots from End of Evangelion are sketches of Misato, Asuka, and Rei in various sexually-fueled scenes – Misato reading a newspaper, Rei toweling off her hair, Asuka lying down, Misato bending forward, Asuka running to school, and a depiction of menstruation – from Shinji Ikari’s perspective.
The mountains, the heavy mountains. What changes over time. The sky, the blue sky. What eyes can’t see. What eyes can see. The Sun, a unique object. Water, what is comforting. Commander Ikari. Flowers, so many of the same kind, and so many unnecessary. The sky, the red, red sky. The color red. I hate the color red. The water flowing. Blood, the smell of blood. A woman who never bleeds. Man who is made from red soil. Man made from man and woman. The city; a human creation. Eva; a human creation. What is a human? God’s creation? Is man manmade? The things I possess are life and soul. I am a vessel for a soul. Entry plug; the throne for a soul. Who is this? This is me. Who am I? What am I? What am I? What am I? What am I? I am myself. This object is me. This is the me that is seen, yet I feel as though I am not myself. Strange. I feel as though my body is melting. I can’t see myself. My shape is fading. I feel the presence of someone who is not me. Is someone there, beyond this?
rei’s poem / episode 14
DECEMBER 8TH 2015 - KATSURAGI MISATO’S BIRTHDAY
“Playing her was difficult. She hides her heart. I’d get overemotional during scenes where Misato’s feelings would explode, scenes where she’d pour her heart out. My hands would shake, and it took all my might to keep the script I was holding from rustling or making noise. She’s strong, brave; a woman. I’ve focused exclusively on Misato for so long – I wanted to know her, to understand her – I concentrated my all on her.” – Kotono Mitsuishi
